A day early….BUT…..

I’m guessing on the number of candles 🙂 but this is a shout out to my very dear friend who no longer lives close to us!!  Linz….you are amazing and I miss you a ton!!!
L-Lovely, in every sense of the word!
I-Incredibly sensitive to others
N-Nice & Organized (need I say anything about tupperware???)
Z-Zaney and full of life!
Y-Yearning for Knowledge (always from the right sources)

I hope all is going well in your neck of the woods!!  Kiss and hug all those boys for me!!  Love you!

 

Happy TWO Months Spike, Spike!!

Who me??  OH YA! 

Dear Spike, Spike……
How fun it is to have you at our house!!  It is more fun when you are not screaming.  We have had a rough start, but every day gets a little easier and we trust each other a little more and figure out  more about each other.  I’m sorry for all of the times I have eaten something that has bothered you or kept you awake.  I wish I could make it all better.  You have just started smiling and talking to us.  It is so enjoyable to listen to you and so very rewarding to see you smile……worth most of the screaming!  I cannot wait to see what the next year has to hold for all of us!!  This is a shot of your ‘wild man’ hair….Scuff thought it needed to be documented!!  And of course…..here is the great smile we were talking about!  Love you!  Mom

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Precious Moments…..

Well, as I sit here, alone, the house is quiet, the baby is sleeping, the children are at a friend’s and I have a very few moments of me time, I wonder what shall I do??  The thought is BLOG.  Just a quick update of life with an infant.

The baby is amazing…truly.  I am so very blessed with the opportunity to have a new spirit in our home.  He reminds me daily of the precious process of mortality.  We are so very fragile when we get here—so very dependent upon all of those around us we have to rely on to have our needs met—just basic needs–to be fed, changed, burped, held, loved, cherished.  How much trust we must have.  How much trust God is placing in us by sending them to our homes!!  I do not have that same kind of faith and trust in humanity, yet. 

The roller coaster of emotion is very alive and well at our house.  It vacillates from elation and wonder (like the above paragraph) to frustration and sadness at not knowing how best to help little people and just stop the screaming and induce sleep.  Yes, we are no different than any other home with a newborn.  Two days ago the baby screamed most of the day and was not consolable.  There are a few nights of not sleeping and plenty of tears to go along.  But then there are other days when I just marvel at the entire process and offer consistent gratitude and praise for being allowed to participate, again and again.

I have a painting on my wall in the bedroom.  It is a picture of Mary holding her infant, in a room made of stone, gazing up into the morning sun or coming moonlight–I’m not sure which.  We see her from the back.  The scene is peaceful with blue tones and hues, only changed by the light from hole in the wall.  My cousin once told me, “Only a mother knows that look.”  I know that look.  To me it says, “Help me!  Help me to raise this child in a manner pleasing to Thee.  Help me know what he needs, when to give it to him and when to withhold it.  Help me to be strong enough, wise enough, patient enough…..help me to just BE enough…whatever that is.” and “Thank you.  Thank you for this precious gift!  These precious moments that will only last for a few short months!  Thank you.”  There is nothing like the feelings you have with a sleeping infant snuggled into your chest and silence all around as you take in that sacred air and offer your heart and soul in raising this child of Heaven.  Indeed it is good that you have offered that, for that is what is required.  But in the end, you receive not only what you gave but the increase of another heart and soul who calls you Mother.

I dearly love you Ryan!!!  Thanks for joining the party!  And welcome home!

So very much to BLOG about!!!

First and foremost:

PLEASE WELCOME
RYAN HOWARD LUND

 

Ryan was born on Saturday.  I am completely in love with this baby and cannot believe how incredibly easy it is to love something so precious and small.  I should have known the feelings would come.

He is adorable and sweet, and has a very peaceful disposition.  I will save you the details of labor….but it was a little scary at the beginning.  We were talking about doing an emergency C-section, in fact, we were planning on it.  We had to wait a little while before we went that way and as we waited, things settled down, and we were able to have a normal labor.  Ryan was 6 pounds 7 ounces, 19 inches long, at delivery.  He is loved and doted on by all of his siblings.  We are so very grateful to have him join our family.

Second, on Sunday, they called Drew to be the Bishop of our ward.  We have done it before.  It will be plenty of work and the phone began ringing on Sunday night and hasn’t stopped.  My husband is truly amazing.  The calling took both of us by surprise.

Third, Johnathan leaves on Wednesday morning for the MTC (Missionary Training Center).   He will be there for two and half weeks and then he heads off to Florida for his mission.

So, it has been and will continue to be a very emotional couple of weeks.  I forget all the hormones that accompany the birth of a child and all of the adjustment that comes with it.  We are still in the honeymoon period of the process.  As we move into the full swing of things, I am sure there will be more stress and adjustment, but for now, I am completely happy and in awe of the entire process.  And for those of you who are wondering…..check out this hair:

It is a frosty blonde color.  Most of my babies have very little black hair….but not Ryan….lots and lots of yummy frosting on top of my cute little cupcake.

12 days and counting!!

Yep….we are down to the wire…for Johnathan and our new addition (still no name).  I went in yesterday for an ultrasound.  Very little boy, who sucks his thumb and has a round face.  The crib is set up.  The clothes are washed.  The diapers are here.  It is really setting in that he is coming and soon.  I imagine that after he gets here there will be less and less time for blogging until I adjust to having a new little person in our home.  I am getting a little excited to welcome him home.

And feeling a little sad for sending Johnathan off.  It has been so fun to have him home for these last few months.  (Although the food bill is higher and all of the leftovers are gone!)  I know he will be a marvelous missionary!!  I cannot believe we will have two missionaries out in the field and a new baby.  I did feel a little better about the whole thing when I learned that Elder Maxwell’s mother had a baby while he was serving his mission and President Monson’s mother had a baby three weeks before he was married, after he had graduated from college, been engaged for a year and also had an older sister.  I decided maybe it was OK to have a baby this old.

Well…..that is my quick update.  Hopefully everything will go well with this delivery.  Wish me luck!!

This Photo is for you, Diana!!

Sorry the quality isn’t so hot.  I guess that’s what you get when you try to pull photos off of your phone!!  Johnathan received his endowments last weekend.  So here he is, our prospective missionary and his very pregnant mother.

I read THIS article the other day and thought it was amazing and have been pondering it ever since.

There are wonderful things about having a new baby—but there are difficult things too.  I recognized recently that I have been sad about the timing of this baby.  I have been so excited about the possibilities of working with the youth, which I have done a little over the last six years and which is hard to do with an infant.  Our new baby will make this possibility difficult to say the least.

The timing of our baby is completely the Lord’s choice.  This year, my attitude and disappointment about not serving with the youth is a weed in the garden of my life.  (Refer to the above article for a frame of reference for this comment.)  It will interfere in my growth and development as a mother and my ability to bond with this baby.  For whatever reasons, the Lord in His infinite wisdom and love has sent this child to us and we have the blessing to embrace the opportunity and completely welcome him into our home and our hearts.

How often do we look at the gifts our Father in Heaven has given us as stones and serpents because they are not what we want or they do not look like we think they should or they do not happen when we think they should?  Do we not remember that the Lord only gives bread and fish??? [Read HERE–vs. 8-11, to understand this analogy.]  He doesn’t give stones and serpents….only good gifts, bread and fish.  The negative aspects of some undesired events or circumstances in our lives may be more a product of our attitude and view point than is truly the case. 

Difficult circumstances and events are usually tailored to us individually and minister to our growth and development, our understanding and compassion, our faith and hope.  We cannot avoid negative experiences..they happen to all of us.  [more on this topic HERE–another GREAT article!]

What experiences have you had that you originally thought of as negative, but later came to realize were a blessing or helped you learn??

There is no doubt in my mind that I will learn a lot.  I already have, even though I have not fully appreciated the lessons, at this point.  I hope I can open my heart more to the process so that I can truly learn the lessons the Lord is choosing to put before me.

One more change.

So I was released as RS President yesterday.  I’m not too sad, just wondering if I did everything I was supposed to do in my calling.  Did I do all that the Lord needed and expected of me?? 

I always look forward to my new assignment, but I have the feeling that won’t be coming until after I have this baby.  And then I wonder, is delivery and recovery going to be so bad that I wouldn’t be able to manage another calling until there has been some adjustment time??  Just more questions and more changes.  OY!

Changes……

Well, that is my least favorite topic.  I have learned that I really do not like change.  I like things to stay comfortable.  I love knowing what to expect and how to plan my emotions accordingly….silly, huh?

We have a lot of changes on the horizon.  Not necessarily bad ones, just different ones, taking my life in a direction I didn’t necessarily want to go.  Nothing life changing.  We are not moving.  Drew isn’t changing jobs.  Even expected changes, though, aren’t welcome.

Our principal is retiring this year.  He has been amazing.  I have loved having our children at his school.  His staff is happy.  The other children are happy.  He is a master at nurturing people and giving praise and solving problems.  I’m sure our new principal will also be wonderful.  I know her.  And I really, really like her.  I just don’t want to let go of our current one.  Of course, her move, means we will have a new, unnamed principal at Joshua’s school.

Our seminary teacher was released on Sunday.  She is amazing!  The teenagers absolutely love her.  The adults absolutely love her.  She is exciting and exuberant about the gospel and the lives of her students.  She isn’t even my teacher and I am sad for her to go…..even though that is the way of the gospel.  We all have callings and don’t always know when we will be released from them or who will take over after our turn is up.

I am not going to Girls’ Camp this year.  That is a lot of sadness.  The hardest part of the entire process is that I was called, cleared by my doctor, and given my favorite responsibility at Girls’ Camp this year.  But my body has been telling me that attending camp this pregnant is not a good idea and the Spirit confirmed that thought.  But I just really, really want to go….like I want to every year.

We are homeschooling Daniel in the fall.  That brings a whole dimension of newness.  I have never home schooled any of the children.  Will I be able to manage the curriculum?  Will we be disciplined enough to work on school at the times we need to without letting life get too in the way?  How am I supposed to do that with a new baby?  Will Daniel be OK missing out on the social environment he is beginning to thrive in?  What about his music?  A lot of unanswered questions.  I know it is the right decision.  I just really wonder if I am up to the task…?

Other changes….Tammy is attending UVU!!!  Hooray for her…..sad for me.  I am totally happy for her and so very grateful she is there to learn and grow.  And I miss her a ton.  She was over here a lot before she left.  But we still communicate and I’m sure we always will.  We just have that kind of a relationship.  Our stake presidency is changing at the end of June.  We are having a new baby in August and Johnathan is leaving for his mission in August.  Johnathan’s departure and the baby’s arrival are supposed to happen on the same day.  We will see how those things go.  But just more changes…..

And of course, with pregnancy and age, my body is changing every day and it is nothing like I have experienced with the other pregnancies.  I cannot do as much, at all.  Not just because I am pregnant, but because of my age.  It takes me two hours to grocery shop now when it used to take one.  I am not doing any of the dishes.  Even my cooking and laundry have been scaled down.  The kids are learning to pick up the slack, but some things are just being left undone. (I am very, very grateful I spent so much time teaching Joshua to read before I got pregnant……I have hardly worked with him since then.  But he is fine and his reading is better than anyone else at the end of kindergarten.)

So…….I guess for everything there is a time and a season.  But it is so very frustrating not being capable of  what I have done in the past.  I guess this is the part of growing old that I probably will not face so well.

I suppose at some point I will embrace the change and recognize and see that all of those things were for the better and contributed to my growth and development…..But today, just for today (well–according to this blog post not only for today but for the rest of tomorrows 🙂 I would really like things to just stay the same.

Well….you heard it!!  Johnathan opened his mission call today and is to report to the Provo MTC on August 3rd……  Our baby is due on the 10th, but the doctor said he would not let me go past the 3rd of August.  So I guess Johnathan gets his wish and most likely, he will be here to see the baby born and into the MTC before the Fall semester begins.  (So that when he returns he can jump right back into school!) 

We are very excited for him and know this is a call from the Lord which will provide the growth and development Johnathan needs and the people who he needs to touch.  Congratulations Johnathan!!  We are very proud of you!  (And we are so very grateful Kyle was able to call in when we opened up the letter!)